#uuh........ what else do i fucking tag this as

[lynnospen]

”I wonder who’s sending these” it’s okay tumblr user lynnospen / Mari (I don’t know which you preferr) I know what you are /silly

IM SOBBIGN

it appears my secret has been uncovered (it was not secret at all) (i was literally the first like on the initial post and the answers)

[heymrspatel]

❤️🩷 weekly tag wednesday 🩷❤️

i was tagged by @heymacy @deedala @creepkinginc 🥰

name: julissa 😇

where the heck are ya? on my couch!

do you believe in love at first sight? hmmm not really. extreme attraction? a crazy spark? magnetism? ofcourse! but like love love? eeh

do you believe in soulmates? yes to this! the: your soul speaks to me/i understand you and you understand me/i feel like i've known you my entire life/i can be my whole self around you/you are comfort/you are peace/you are quiet love. FUCK YES!

what’s a song you’ve been loving? this cover of "mona lisas and mad hatters" by orville peck that i didn't know existed and now i can't stop listening

how about a show you’ve been loving? uuh i haven't watched anything new in a while. i've just been going back to comfort shows, so i'll just say new girl lol!

your ultimate OTP: ian and mickey forever and ever and ever and ev-

your comfort book: hmm i'll go with the percy jackson series. like, straight through including the heroes of olympus books!

a fan work you adore (fic, art, manip, etc — tag the creator!): yeeehaaawww ok! this is an IMPOSSIBLE question! but i'll go with what first popped into my head or else i'll be here for hours:

fic: "dream a little dream of me" by @sam-loves-seb

art: tomato boy and his husband by @deedala

manip: shy boy in his husband's shirt by @whatthebodygraspsnot

gifset: "you ever think back in the day this is where we'd be?" by @twobabkas

photo edit: "oh hands" by @darlingian

video: "in love noises" by @samantitheos

craft: "show some love" cookies by @michellemisfit

a trope that captures your heart: lord almighty those stupid friends to lovers that pine and want and tease and joke and are stupid

favorite candy: sour patch kids!

dark chocolate or white chocolate? both please

romance novels or thrillers? romance

pink or red? 💋💃🏻🌹❤️

and finally, spread some love! share words of encouragement, a positive message, or say something kind to yourself — it’s up to you! keep feeling your feelings and loving real big and supporting with your whole heart and passionately making stuff that makes you entirely happy! 💙

i'll tag @whatthebodygraspsnot @metalheadmickey @whatwouldmickeydo @gallawitchxx @howlinchickhowl @rereadanon @mickeysgaymom @mmmichyyy @sam-loves-seb @darlingian @samantitheos @michellemisfit @lee-ow @mybrainismelted @transmickey if you would like to play! if not, this is just me giving you some strawberries 🍓 (or your fruit of choice)

[autism-purgatory]

thanks for tagging @fortunatetragedy!

Incorrect Quote Game

Rules: use this link to generate incorrect quotes for your OC’s. I chose Cole and Julia for this one.

Cole: I think I just figured something out. I got to go.  Julia: Aren't you forgetting something?  Cole: Uuh...*hesitantly kisses Julia's forehead before running out.*  Julia: No, pay your bill! Damn, who raised you?

Julia: *seductively takes off glasses*  Julia: Wow...  Cole: *blushes* Haha... what?  Julia: You're really fucking blurry.

Julia: Did it hurt when you fell-  Cole: From heaven? Wow, I didn’t think you were such a flirt-  Julia: No, I meant when you fell down the stairs.  Cole: ...  Julia: You just laid there for 15 minutes.

Cole: You are the love of my life and I would do anything within reason to make you happy.  Julia: I would be happy if you ate, stayed hydrated and got a reasonable amount of sleep.  Cole: I said within reason, Julia. How about I murder that guy?  Julia: So murder is in reason but proper self care isn't?  Cole: Well, duh. What kind of question is that?

these aren’t incorrect bc they absolutely would have conversations like this lmao.

tagging @finickyfelix @noblebs @xenascribbles and whoever else wants to join!

[moinsbienquekaworu]

Yeah I've had a S4 poster on my wall since middle school and I still have a deep deep fondness for the show, I mean I'm reading fanfics for it still, but if you think that Eurus Holmes was a good and well executed idea I don't know what to tell you :')

Unstoppable force (I really really want to rewatch some Sherlock BBC episodes and my brain won't let me do anything else) vs immovable object (none of them are actually good and I don't want to go through that experience again)

[torterragarden]

I was tagged by @bigcryptiddies to do this thing so thank you bestie 💗💗

Relationship status: single

Favorite color: light grey/silver, which people always think is weird but shut up that's the color of the moon and foggy mornings and rainy days show some goddamn respect

Last song I listened to: Reason by Dreamcatcher. I feel like my answer to these kinds of questions is always Dreamcatcher, I swear they're not all I listen to lmao

Song stuck in my head: Dilemma by Apink

Three favorite foods: idk I hate answering this cause I'm so picky and I never want to eat anything (but I do anyway don't worry). But uuh in general I really like Indian food, Thai food and Vietnamese food

Last thing I googled: oh fuck okay this is really embarrassing lmao but it was "ginyu force power levels" because I was watching Namek saga, as I do, and I suddenly and inexplicably got really curious what they all were and was compelled to google it. Idk what came over me and I need y'all to understand that I don't give a fuck about power levels lmao I'm not one of those people I'm not usually that cringe I swear. Or at least I'm usually cringe in a completely different way

Dream trip: oough idk... there's a lot of places I really want to see idk if I can settle on just one dream trip

Something I want right now: I want this project I'm on at work to fucking end already oh my god it's been 84 years

Tagging @twennywan @saintoflostmonsters @run2thesky @spacebabe51 @skip-the-clumsy-dragon @honkytonka @baenling @totallyseiso @spacestephh @scalproie if y'all want to no pressure! And anyone else who wants to do it is welcome to

[sergeanthatredbignaturals]

Mandetory Intro Post

Fun facts!

Right, so we’ve got the mandate into post here lads.

I’m Moth. I also go by Madeon, Nexus (or just Nex), Scythe, and Blood Lust (typically just Lust)

I’m also a Sweetheart (OMORI) irl or whatever that’s called (I’m schizophrenic 🔥🔥🔥, the body isn’t i am in source, however the body is prone to bouts of delusion dk why) so like yeah. Do with that what you will

I’m part of a system, suspected P-DID but we’re not sure. I’m the host, and i run this account so like don’t expect to see anything posted by anyone else y’know? If there is something posted by someone else it’ll be stated in the post so people will know

Uuh, if it wasn’t already obvious, big Venture Bros fan (the show kinda sucks fucking ass, but I’m acoustic [autistic] and it’s literally taken over my fucking life [killing myself/j])

Fuckin’ uuh- ion even know how many Venure Bros introjects we got at this point

Theres quite a few, I’m gonna check Simply Plural and hope i remembers to register at least most of them

Theres about 17, i think? Theres 15 on there, and an additional 2 that i can remember so fuuun (this Godforsaken show has taken over my life, send help)

Right so I’m homozygous (I’m omniflux, and like half the aromantic labels ever/hj) I’m also alexigender, and identify with far too many fuckin’ xenogenders (i have no clue how many, I’m lazy and haven’t made a proper list) and i use any pronouns. I’m also polyamorus and am dating several alters within our system

DNI

Proshippers

Homophobic

Transphobic

Ableist

Racist

Alla that bullshit

Just generally bigoted

Pro-Isreal (hope you’re having fun supporting literal fucking genocide)

Pro-endo, or just general non-traumagenic systems (guys i have PTSD but without the T soundin’ bullshit, like dawg that is literally impossible)

Anti-neopronoun/xenopronoun/whatever other pronouns there are/xenogender

I’ll add more when I’m less fucking exhausted and can actually think

BYI

I’m 24, but the body is like 17

I tend to yap on a lot

Very down bad, probably will post/repost NSFW content, however it will be tagged as #nsft

(If it wasn’t already obvious) Sergeant Hatred fan, will post about him, will write out essays in his defence

Cannot spell for shit half the time, autocorrect is all that’s kept this shit legible

Very heavily opinionated (i feel like that’s obvious at this point but i also feel is should clarify)

I will be posting OC (realistically self insert) x cannon shit, so like go away if that bothers you for whatever reason

I’m a Sweetheart IRL, as stated before, i have memories of my ex-husband, i may post shit about that in the future. If you have attachments to Spaceboy and that makes you uncomfortable to see someone shitting on him then like don’t follow me, or tell me and i can add a warning to posts if you want. Ion really mind

That’s about it for now

Toodles

[suburbiamac]

cowboy macdennis au

Mac lives on a ranch with with his cattle dog Poppins. He never wears a shirt when working outside and always ends up sunburnt because he’s an idiot. He has tan lines and his legs are significantly more pale than the rest of his body.

Mac is pretty well known for his rodeo skills down at Cowtown Rodeo in Philly, and he’s won countless competitions over the years.

Dennis owns a saloon that was originally Frank's but when Frank 'mysteriously' died Dennis got ownership because he cheated Dee out of a share in the family business, as always.

Dennis has seen Mac around at a few events and on TV, but they’ve never officially met (Mac probably doesn’t know he even exists at this point). 

There's a mechanical bull in Dennis' saloon and every month he holds a contest that regulars frequently enter. One time Mac showed up as a guest appearance and won, obviously, so Dennis gave him drinks on the house for the rest of the night (which he was going to do regardless, because wow, that hot famous cowboy is in my saloon?)

Mac thought he was charismatic so he becomes a regular there. Dennis probably uses the pick up line 'save a horse, ride a cowboy' at one point, because he’s just like that I guess.

Dennis is an avid gun collector. He just has a wall lined with guns that he names after celebrities (Dolly Parton, for example, is one of them).

Mac almost shoots himself while looking at them one time and all Dennis says is ‘my bad. Safety isn’t on!’ while Mac goes off at him about gun safety (but half the things he says are wrong and Den is just laughing).

DENNIS WEARS ASSLESS CHAPS. They’re hot pink and he bedazzles them himself with a cowboy hat to match.

Dennis only wears them in secret and one day Mac walks in on him in hot pink assless chaps and a bedazzled crop top that says ' cow' on it. Mac laughs (but he’s also kind of turned on) to which Dennis just pulls out a pistol and he’s like ‘say anything to anyone else and I’ll shoot'.

They have just as much dirt on each other and there are never ending threats and blackmail between them. Dennis is infinitely worse than mac about it though because he's a wicked little bitch.

Mac tries to threaten Dennis with Poppins sometimes but it never works. He’ll be like ‘SICK ‘EM BOY!!’ and Poppins slowly trots over and just licks Dennis’ hand or something before laying down.

[dhs-in-distress]

Head shot via sneak attack, my girl‘s got some powerful cannons on her so it‘s probably realistically possible in this context. (I put an entire detailed description under the cut proceed at your own risk ehe)

In my head I imagine it sometime around mid to late season three, after she‘s been having an absolute existential crisis about her purpose and position in this conflict and all that. After finally coming to terms with the fact that no the Decepticons are not morally superior in the slightest she contemplates just leaving, not as in leaving the faction but leaving everything behind and just living in the wilderness forever.

Obviously she doesn‘t end up going with that, instead noticing during one of like,,, Megatron‘s monologues or something: „I could just kill him, right here, right now. If he was dead at least half of my problems would be solved, we‘d have a chance at bringing change to this species“. So she powers up her arm cannon as quietly as possible while no one‘s looking and walks up behind Megatron. Then when he turns around to question her about what she thinks she‘s doing the cannon is already pointed directly at his face,, the rest happens pretty quickly.

His entire head like, evaporates and the empty helmet (it‘s the only thing north of his neck that survived that blast since the metal is so thick) falls to the ground with a loud clatter and a giant black scorch mark on the inside. Everyone (I forgot to mention that but yes Blitzwing and Lugnut are also there they were just doing manual labour or smth while Meg was talking at all of them and didn‘t notice the murder about to happen (I forgot Shockwave was even in season three until writing this exact sentence so uuuh, he exists somewhere else too probably)) just stares at it in complete and utter shock and silence for a good 10 seconds before Lugnut is the first one to finally catch up on what just happened and he screams bloody murder, which makes Jailbreak like, really notice what she just did and she snatches up the helmet and transforms, flying out of there before Lugnut and Blitzwing have a chance to come after and probably torture her to death.

She didn‘t even think she‘d get this far with the whole kill Megatron thing, mostly just acting on instinct to the point where she didn’t even process her actions fully, so her entire processor is still foggy and confused and fucked up and now she really doesn‘t know what to do because she betrayed the Autobots 2 million years ago very publicly and now the Decepticons as well. The only thing she knows is that everyone needs to hear about this development, so she pulls up the coords of the tracker she planted in Scatters (dw about that it‘s a whole thing) and heads there, since where he is team prime usually is as well and they‘re the most involved here and in her eyes deserve to know first because „they‘re cool“.

Crap this technically makes them doomed/tragic yuri for a hot second doesn’t it… Like everything (somehow, I haven‘t gotten that far yet) turns out fine in the end but this is still a doozy

Also I saw that cannibalism tag and will run with it as well since I’m already into the rant this deep if you don‘t mind. It‘s a whole thing. Not just the cannibalism, but that due to Jailbreak being stranded on earth for,, uuh, abouttwomillionyears, she‘s been eating a lot of things she shouldn’t, just to stay alive. And when I say a lot of things I mean everything that‘s considered inorganic matter (some organic stuff too but only once and it made her very ill). Anything from various stone types to metals (raw, in ore form, it all goes! She personally enjoys sheet metal the most cause she finds it fun to eat) and other elements to sometimes salts and even mineral dense water (on occasion) goes. Her systems can digest most things, though most of them safe for the metals aren‘t very energy rich.

So yeah cannibalism but with layers.

I really don‘t talk about Jailbreak enough she‘s literally my precious little angel and I love her. Also her entire character journey is about being mistreated severely by the Autobots in the past and as a result defecting to the cons, thinking „if the bots are this terrible then the Decepticons must have a point in antagonising them and must be better people overall!“. Yeah, they are not better.

And then she kills Megatron, but that‘s later. (Maybe she doesn‘t at all actually, after a year I’m still not 100% sure about that whole thing.)

Also also she does cannibalism with Blitzwing and they are a lesbian couple to me heehee

[greenlanterns-light]

I've been rewatching argoanime and earlier I got to where gyroaxia shows up for the first time and I got so overwhelmed from seeing all of them that I had to pause it when the scene ended and I have not finished watching that episode still

[bscully]

Five songs I've been listening to recently

Tagged by @huenot​ Uuh lets see what I have here i have a few playlists that I come back to

Lost Horizon - Highlander (The One)

This is a meme song but it’s actually a banger

Eurhytmics - Sweet dreams

One of my favorite songs when I was a lil teenie

Nightwish - Shoemaker the end ALWAYS gives me goosebumps.... LAAUDAAAAATOOOO SI AD AAAAAAAASTRAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Edguy - Sex Fire Religion

The guitar riff is so sick in this one

Epica - Synergize / Manic Manifest I love everything about this song so fucking much

I am tagging @yoikami @pupperofdarkness @oliv-oil1 and everyone else who sees this and wants to do it!!

[beneath-thestyx]

hihi! thanks a lot for tagging me<3

were you named after anyone?

I have a family member who share the same name as me

when was the last time you cried?

not sure but i think it has been more then two weeks or a month

do you have kids?

no and i don't wanna

do you use sarcasm a lot?

sometimes

what's the first thing you noticed about people?

idk man i just look at them

what's your eye colour?

dark brown

scary movies or happy endings?

happy ending thank you

any special talents?

uuh.....

where were you born?

brazil

what are your hobbies?

sometimes I get into tarot. other times i go searching a specific thing for a while. once or two a year i get addicted to video essays. stopping to think, would get addicted to a show and be obsessed about it count as a hobbie?

do you have any pets?

my doggy<3 he's a daschie

what sports do/have you played?

i took swimming classes. dancing (jazz) is not a sport but it is in my heart. i did olimpic gymnastics. i went to this marcial arts academy and used melee weapons. just remembered i did capoeira, an afro-brazilian sport that mixes martial arts and dancing (we sang cultural songs too. it was very fun)

how tall are you?

5’0

favorite subject in school?

biology. fuck everything else

dream job?

i would love to work with dogs or an animal-related place

tagging: @burythel1ght (darling if u wanna do in other blog its oki), @bakugou-klancey-lance @agrebel18 @parasite-core @birdbombs714 @bpdgotmelike @fulgurite-and-petrichor @cactuwus @horikoshi-secret-ao3-account @kahtherinee and others who'd like to do it!

15 questions, 15 mutuals

Thank you for tagging me @commandercodys-wife 💕💖💕

Were you named after anyone?

I’m named after a book character. My middle name is my ma’s favorite author

When was the last time you cried?

About two weeks ago? I've been called both a cry baby and a cold fish so I'm not sure if I cry a normal amount or not 😔

Do you have kids?

Nope! And I don’t want them

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Not really. But I do have a habit of speaking in a tone that makes people confused about if I’m serious or not, which I guess is sarcasm adjacent

What’s the first thing you noticed about people?

Their smile! People are so pretty when they smile. Love to see people happy 🥰

What's your eye colour?

Blue green

Scary movies or happy endings?

Both! I love horror and I love romcoms. Not often a fan of movies that aren’t horror that end sadly though

Any special talents?

Not really. I’m sort of decent at a lot of things but not great at anything

Where were you born?

Florida

What are your hobbies?

Writing and drawing are the only two I’m somewhat consistent with. I like picking up new hobbies but never keep up with them (embroidery and crochet are my most recent failures)

Do you have any pets?

I have a dog! She is old and not very good at being a dog

What sports do/have you played?

So many of them! Soccer, basketball, dance, gymnastics, track/field, cross country, skating, lacrosse, flag football, badminton, color/winter guard, skiing… probably more!

How tall are you?

5’4”

Favorite subject in school?

In high school: bio. In uni: ecology and German

Dream job?

Wildlife biologist

Tagging @ghostofskywalker @dontletyourchildrenwatchthis @moondirti @groguspicklejar @sofasoap @managarmur @starboytech @wings-and-beskar @fives-girlfriend @cupofjoel @clonemedickix @corrieguards @saradika @starrrgazingbunny @suresnips

[smowkie]

I was tagged by @crazyassmurdererwall, thank you! ♥

relationship status: single favorite color: black is a color three favorite foods: tacos, a good ol steak, and... hm, i have a craving for a chicken dish my sister taught me, which is basically chicken with a ton of cream, crème fraîche, soy sauce, and some sambal oelek that gets to become best friends in the oven, and just rice or potatoes to that, but i would like to add a ton of mushrooms to the chicken, because i love mushrooms. song stuck in my head: I actually don’t have one (i know, sounds fake, but it’s true!) last song i listened to: uuh... so this might be why i don’t have a song stuck in my head much these days, i basically never listen to music, and i honestly can’t remember what song i listened to last. last thing i googled: ...how to spell crème fraîche... time: 23:42 (aka, 11:42 pm) (or, uh, 00:03, aka, 12:03 am now that i’m finished) dream trip: honestly, a dream trip of mine have been to go to the US for so long, to do some road tripping and to go to Ohio to pet the dog and to try all the food, but like... i dont wanna go there anymore. I mean, I guess I sorta want it still, I just want USA to not be... as bad as it is first. I dont want to go there when it looks like it does. I mean, also, it is a dream trip, sorta meaning I can’t really take it, I can barely afford to eat, a ticket to the USA costs more than I get in a month, it’s like, it’s not gonna happen for a long time anyway, so xD anything i really want: i want... well. okay, so. I have a depression that I’ve had for at least 8 years, probably closer to 12 (i got better for a bit there, but i don’t think i really got rid of it, i think i just pushed it down for a while, distracted myself with a new school and town and shiny new friends for a year), and it has, the last 8 years or so, very steadily gotten worse, which has meant i have done less, which has meant my depression has gotten worse, etc and so on. I have also gotten an ADD diagnosis, which, wow, that... explains so much. But that meant i switched from one psych clinic where they did basically nothing to another one where they say they’ll do tons and then do... nothing. And like, that is extremely stressful and not helping my depression at all, so like. Yay. So I want that they either fucking do something and actually help me get out of this depression (which, tbh, they’re understaffed as fuck, it won’t really happen, but the young new doctors who work there so badly want it to happen, so they make promises they then can’t keep), or I want them to just say “no, we have exhausted all possibilities, she’s a lost cause, we can’t get her better” so the state would have to give me a disability pension, so that i could actually fucking live again (i’d get a lot more money from that than i get now).

tl;dr: I want more money. Either by getting rid of this depression so I can do things again, like work, or by them saying i won’t get rid of it so they’ll give me more money.

i tag: @rierasheaven (because you need more action on that blog xD), @seijishun, @mermaid-reyes, and everyone else who wants to do this! (Yes, that means you, I just tagged you!) (and of course, no pressure to the ones I tagged!)

[ladybugsfanfics]

Shut Up And Kiss Me [3/?] | Tom Hiddleston x reader

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston x reader

Style: Part Three of ?

WC: 2864

Warning: cursing, drunkness, some talk about not sleeping enough (sleep deprivation)

Summary: You and Professor Hiddleston have been colleagues for many years now, and through those years the hatred for each other has only grown. Now, as a new school year starts, you’re being told that you have to share a classroom or a class. Neither are happy about the outcome, but knowing you’ll never come to an agreement, you let the class choose for you. Team-teaching is rare in 2019, but it is a lot harder to do when you can’t stand the person you’re doing it with.

A/N: aaa, can’t believe I actually managed to wait a week, but it was worth it because, uuh, before I edited the part i wasnt too happy with it but now I am really proud so like, yeah, also there’s a myth mentioned in this. Said myth is called  Thor the Transvesite and i recommend reading it because it is hilarious and one of my fave norse myths. enjoy ^_^

If you want to be tagged, please send an ask or a DM ^_^

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You lean back in your chair, hands warmed by a cup of hot chocolate that tastes of heaven as you sip it. 

Across the room, Hiddleston is approached by Alisha Grant. The head of HR owes you a favor and now you get to see her do the little thing you’d asked of her the night before.The English Literature professor frowns at her words, pulls back in confusion and purses his lips with what you can only read as anxiousness. His feet start tapping against the floor and he pushes his glasses up his nose with his pointer finger.

Dr. Grant smiles at him, turns and leaves, walking towards you. She stops in front of the table you occupy. “Happy?” she asks.

You nod with a beaming smile. “Of course. Now he’s anxious and the rest of part one will be easy.” 

She shakes her head and rolls her eyes. “I put you two in the same classroom so you’d become more capable of behaving in each other’s presence, yet here you are, making me do something that helps with the exact opposite.” 

“And you love me for it,” you say and sip your hot chocolate with a smug smile. “You find our rivalry as cute as Benedict. God, I was at his place on Friday to talk to him about this research thing I’m doing and he couldn’t talk about anything but our feud.”

“Oh, because you can.” Alisha rolls her eyes again. “Anyways, I’ve done as you asked and now you’ll have to excuse me, I have a lunch to attend.”

“Sure, don’t eat with me. I’m not all alone and bored to death,” you say sarcastically. 

Alisha shakes her head, though with an amused smile tugging at her lips. “You’ll have to ask someone else then. Bye.” She gives a little wave and walks away, still shaking her head. 

As she leaves, a rather angry professor marches up to you. Hiddleston’s brows are knitted together and his eyes stare daggers at you. You only smile innocently at him, fully enjoying the moment. 

“What do you think you’re doing?” he asks, his accent more pronounced with the anger in his voice. 

You shrug. “Honestly, I’m not sure. Just out here bullshitting my way through life.” You sip your hot chocolate, smiling smugly behind the mug.

“No, you had something to do with Dr. Grant approaching me.” He sits down in the chair across from yours. “What did you tell her?”

“Nothing,” you say, which, in all honesty, is the truth. “We’re friends, okay? I’m sorry she isn’t yours. Jealousy isn’t necessarily a bad thing, but remember to tone it down a little maybe?.”

The neck in his veins bulges out, blue shading the fair color of his skin, and threatening to explode. You purse your lips, though the lower trembles a little and tears starts to form in your eyes. Suppressing a laugh is harder than you thought. 

“Oh, shut up,” he says and stands. “Don’t believe I don’t know what you’re doing.” 

Watching him madly stalk away makes its way to the top ten things everyone should experience in life. You have never seen something as beautiful (to be honest, his little ass isn’t that bad). 

 ---

“You’re an idiot, do you know that?” Hiddleston hisses at you. 

“Excuse me?” You stare at him. “I’m the idiot? Have you met yourself?” 

He clenches his fists, opens his mouth, and decides against it. Hiddleston takes a glance up at the thirty students writing away at their computers and chatting with each other. You scoff. If you knew all it would take for him to shut up was to have students in the room, you’d have proposed this idea to Dean McHallan years ago. 

The professor takes a step closer to you, close enough for you to hear his heartbeat and feel his breath mix with yours. “I’m not sure exactly what you have as a brain, but I can assure you, it is no bigger than a nut,” he says, venom laced in his voice. 

“And I can assure you, it still contains more information than the bloated one you have.” 

 ---

The papers spread out on your office floor make less sense now than they did when you first put them down. Instead of being a fun research project as you hoped, it gives you a massive headache. Nevertheless, you had gotten some very nice ideas for classes. 

Your sophomore class had taken a liking to the idea of researching norse mythology in a new way. Reading some of the myths had turned into a great laughing session and been turned into an assignment to study as relics and reports, a great way to learn how to assess a source. 

And for the creative writing class on Thursday―you have yet to propose this to Hiddleston―you have an idea to use allusions to pepper in nuance to a story. 

But for the moment, as your mind is blank and a pikachu and a bulbasaur pops up, you’re pretty sure the last two all nighters weren’t a good idea. Or maybe you’re playing Pokemon Go with your mind (who knows?). 

You startle to a knock on your office door. “Come in,” you say and try to shake away the two pokemon in front of you as you regain your balance. It only works halfway and the person who opens the door steps on them as he comes inside. Actually, it might be that shot or two (shh, it wasn’t more) of vodka you took to brainstorm that does this. 

“Why aren’t you going home?” Benedict sighs and gives you a worried look. 

You shrug. “Beats me. I really should,” you say and nod aggressively, with a grimace saying ‘you’re-right’. 

Benedict tilts his head. “Are you drunk?” he asks and takes a step further into the room. 

“Noooo,” you say and hop down from your desk. You land on the mess of papers, mixing up their positions. “I would never.” You furiously shake your head no and then slowly go over to nodding. “Actually, now that I think about it. I might be?” 

“Okay, come here. I’m driving you home.” He holds out a hand for you to take. 

You accept it and smile at him. “You’re such a good friend.” Your nose scrunches as you coo at him and smile wider, showing teeth. 

He nods with a smile. “I know I am. You have your things?” 

You let go of his hand and turn around to find your backpack. “Ready,” you say, only to go and get your jacket. You stop mid track and your eyes widen. “Oh, oh, oh.” You scramble to your desk and find a pen and paper, and write down the idea that popped into your head. 

“Y/N,” says Benedict, his voice soft, “we should leave.” 

You wave at him. “Uno momento,” you say in broken Spanish and finish the sentence. You squeal at the amazing idea and scramble for your coat, putting the note in the pocket. “Ready!”

Benedict shakes his head, though he smiles and follows you out. He locks your office for you and takes your car keys. “I’ll pick you up tomorrow, too, don’t worry about it.”

“I won’t,” you say and hug him from the side. “You’re the best. Not like Tom. He’s the worst.”

You hear the physics professor sigh, but he doesn’t comment on it as you slowly begin to talk about the English Lit professor. He doesn’t mention it as you talk about the man’s personality, nor does he mention it when the words, “he has no business being that hot,” slips out and you let out a heavy sigh. 

 ---

You groan as you get into the passenger seat of Benedict’s car. “You have no idea how much my head hurts,” you say and stare at him through a pair of sunglasses. 

“Then you shouldn’t drink and work.” He rolls his eyes, but you notice the smile playing on his lips. “What made you believe that was a good idea?”

“Uhh, I believe it was the all-nighters. After all, when you came into the room I saw pokemon.” You groan at the hazy memory. “Fuck, that’s usually not even a consquence of alcohol.” 

Benedict takes a turn out of your neighborhood. “No, but it is a symptom of sleep deprivation. You should take better care of yourself.” He casts a quick glance your way with a worried smile, and then puts his attention back on the road. “What more do you remember?”

You shrug. “Uhh, you helping me. Getting my things.” You scrunch your face to rack your brain for the hazy moments of last night, but not much more comes to mind. “Did I do something stupid?”

A chuckle comes from Benedict. “Be glad I was the one to find you,” he says. “You didn’t do anything stupid until after, though. But I remember you having some bright idea? Care to indulge?”

“Bright idea?” you ask. 

“Yeah, you were about to get your jacket when you had some realization and wrote something down.”

“Oh,” you say. You check your jacket pockets, and true enough, there’s a post-it note inside it. You unfold the note and try to decipher the scrambled words. talk to tom about class. (remember don’t mention your crush shhhh) 

You nod, curl the paper and put it back into your pocket. “It was not a good idea and really you should never trust drunk people to have good ideas.” 

Benedict laughs and you sit back in silence. You press your lips together as your mind races through the few things you said as Benedict helped you home. Biting your lip, you can’t remember anything that will alert your friend to something you don’t want him to know. Nor did he see the note, so you should be good. 

Still, during the next few minutes before Benedict pulls up to campus, your heart beats unsteadily. Your head throbs and your gut churns at the stupid admittance from your drunk and sleep deprived self. The knowledge that said secret is about the person you allegedly hate, that gives you countless headaches throughout the day, and that you’re teaching a class with in a few hours, has your head spin and your throat go dry.

Yup, sure, looking forward to it. 

 ---

“Professor Y/L/N.”

You turn around to the small smile of one of your students. Mr. Holland purses his lips, his grip on a piece of paper turning his knuckles white. “What can I help you with?” you ask him, returning his kind, albeit nervous,  smile. 

He looks down. “I was wondering if you could, uh, read over this story I wrote.” He hands you the paper and carefully looks up at you. “You don’t have to, really, I just… I have you in both history and this and you said to use classes to ease the workload, and well, I have this story that does a take on one of the myths we have in history.”

“Really?” You raise a brow and accept the paper. The title reads Lady Thor, and immediately you smile knowing which myth he chose. The image of Thor claiming to be Freya and swinging Mjolnir at his new husband and the guests, all the while dressed in a bridal gown that spared no expenses. “Even this one. You know, this is one of my favorites.” 

Mr. Holland nods. “Yeah, of the ones you showed us, it’s mine, too.” He puts a hand on his neck and rubs. His eyes avoid your gaze a little, but through his eyelashes you can see him look up at you for a reaction. 

You smile wider, eye crinkling at the sides. “I’ll read through it tonight, okay?” 

At the words, Mr. Holland visibly relaxes. His arm falls down to his side, and he smiles. “Oh, wow, that’s really cool of you. Thank you so much.” 

You widen your smile at him. “Don’t worry about it.”

Mr. Holland nods and shakes his head at the same time, looking like a little kid finally getting that present he wants. “Thank you so much. Have a nice day, professor Y/L/N. Thank you so much.”

You let out a laugh. “Thank you. Have a nice day, too, Mr. Holland,” you say, “see you tomorrow in class.”

He nods and leaves the classroom, last of the thirty students after yet another class of creative writing. You let out a content sigh and gather your things on the desk, tucking the paper with his story carefully into the same fold as your laptop so as not to wrinkle it. 

“Uh,” Hiddleston says, and you turn your head and glance at him, “this idea of yours, incorporating other works into their own, it was rather good.” 

You raise a brow and fully turn around. “Wait? Is what I’m hearing praise? From Thomas William Hiddleston? From the man who hates my guts?” You fish your phone out of your pocket and open the camera. “Can you say it again, but on camera so I have proof?” 

Hiddleston rolls his eyes. “Can’t you just take the compliment? I know there’s not a lot of space in the nut you call a brain, but maybe try to find some for basic mannes.” 

“Oh, because there’s more space in yours? Sure, it’s bloated, but we both know how small it really is.” You scoff and turn around, putting your phone back in your pocket and closing the zipper of your backpack. “You know what, Hiddleston?” You turn back to him. 

“What?” 

“You’re just annoyed that I might actually have the upper hand in this class. That my ideas are better than yours and that, really, I should have the whole class. You know as well as I that the only reason I don't is because you’re too proud to admit I’m better than you.” 

The man takes long, quick strides, closing the distance between you two. “I’m not annoyed. Rather I find it fascinating that you’re teaching a class that you’re less qualified for than the rest of the teaching faculty.” 

“I’m more than qualified. In fact, I believe I’m more qualified than you in certain aspects of it. All you got is your literature and your language, and sure it helps, but you’re too stuck up with the old you don’t know what’s new and how to actually make these students achieve to the best of their abilities.” You raise your voice. Eyes lock onto his; You can see your reflection in them, see the anger riddled on your face. “The fact that you don’t think I’m qualified is exactly why you’re brain is bloated; It’s because you can’t see facts unless they’re touching your dick.”

Hiddleston shakes his head. “Oh, yeah,” he says, “and why can’t you realize that I never did anything to you and that the only reason you hate me is because you need some action in your life?”

What has that got to do with anything?

You take a step closer to him. “Action? And what action do you give my life?” His breath mixes with yours. “You give me headaches, stomach aches making me want to not show up for work. I’ve missed every birthday of Benedict’s kids because of you and I love those kids. You ruin my life because you can’t see that not everything revolves around you. You’re not the freakin’ sun, but you damn as well might be the Earth being that egocentric”

You’re both shouting now. Your words mix together and distorts into the background. One step closer and you can smell his cologne, One step closer and his heartbeat mixes with yours, creating a rhythm that takes control of your mind. Half a step closer and you’re inches apart, close enough for you to look into those blue-green eyes of his and see the fury sparkle. Half a step closer and you’ll be close enough to only need one push and your lips will touch his. 

Neither of you stop shouting, but as you take that step closer, you forget what you’re arguing about, even though your mouth continues to shout words. 

Never in a million years would you admit the thought that runs through your head as you take that step. Never in a million years would you act on said thought. But, right there and then, it crosses your mind. It races across, asking a million questions of what would happen if you were to lean up those few inches and capture his lips in a heated kiss that would finally shut him up. 

But you don’t act. 

No, instead, your voice returns. Instead, your head grows clear. Instead, Tom’s voice slows down, the volume of his voice decreasing. 

In that moment, you know with one hundred percent certainty; You will never admit to why you hate him. You’ll never admit it’s easier to hate. Easier to fuel unnecessary rage and unjustified actions. Easier to keep hating and fuel the energy behind it. 

Because asking for forgiveness takes courage you don’t possess.

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21 Questions

I was tagged by @sherrybaby14 well she tagged my main but I don’t really post on there. Unless it’s by accident... lolol

Nicknames: Miri that’s it  

Real Name: Miriam

Zodiac: Tuarus

Height: 5′6″

What ⏰ is it: 5:19 pm

Favourite Band/Group: I have a lot but I’ll say for now its Deca, will change tomorrow.  

Favourite Sport Team:  Texas Rangers and Dallas Stars

Other blogs: My Main blog which has been almost entirely abandoned. 

Do I get asks: I do from time to time. I love them all!!!

How many blogs I follow: 412

Tumblr Crush: Wow too many, lets see how much of a whore I am. There’s obs the wives @sagechanoafterdark @cake-writes I have crushes on @honeyhan-123 and @spacesnail3000. Low key getting a crush on @hysteria87

Lucky🍀 Number: 7

What am I wearing now: A grey shirt and jeans with some black wedges. I was lazy getting dressed this morning. No jewellery, nada.   

Dream Vacation: Uuh, Europe yeah I think Europ. Maybe even Australia to stalk @cake-writes I mean whuu?

Dream Car: 1969 Dodge Charger bby

Favourite Food: I am a very simple woman, pickles. Fucking love pickles.

Drinks of choice: Green tea

Instrument: Drums and that’s it, no singing talent unless you get me drunk. 

Language: English, Hebrew, Arabic and bit of French.   

Celebrity Crush: Chris Evans, Sebastian Stan, Tom Hardy, Hugh Laurie since I was a little kid, and Oded Fehr. I’m sure more I’m not thinking of. 

Random Fact: I am anal retentive about my cleanliness or I am a slob. There is no in-between. 

Tagging: @hysteria87 @iwritesmutsandfluff @rubberbucky @spacesnail3000 @honeyhan-123 @cake-writes @shotsbyshae@clubcheapwhitewine @emmandhercoffecrisp and anyone else who wants to?

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uuh, @warlock-enthusiast (everytime i want to tag you i start typing @loon..ah wait no it’s burned into my brain hasghj) tagged me thank youu!

🌿 favourite comfort food: i don’t know how much that’s really about the food and more about the spectacle or whatever but take-out always makes me happy, other than that i’d have to say it’s two of my family’s traditional holiday meals, for x-mas we always eat gratinated pork tenderloin with mushrooms in cream sauce & french fries on the side, on good friday (not for religious reasons really but just cause it’s tradition) we dont eat meat and since my dad doesn’t eat fish we always eat a casserole made of rice and bell pepper and mushrooms and tomatoes and cheese and creme fraiche sauce (even when were not at home, at least me and my sister tend to cook it wherever we are (or, super cute, my sisters fiance who called my mom to ask for the recipe to surprise my sister with it this year despite him disliking anything with warm bell peppers)). curious really, the things i consoder comfort food are not so much about the taste and more about how these things are tied to special situations, either family memories or just the rare act (to me at least) of ordering out

🌼 favourite alcohol: mint/gin julep, or whiskey lemon smash, generally anything with mint and lemon and ginger is always good to me, combined with gin or whiskey 👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻

🌷 favourite relaxing activity: drawing, it’s like a fucking spell i just completely zone out, alternatively certain video games

🌸 favourite fluffy/feel good fic: i don’t really have one, i’m not really a fic reader i can’t even remember when i last read one and what fandom it was even about 

🌻 favourite calming scent: i don’t quite know how to describe it it’s that summer afternoon smell, sometimes but not necessarily including the smell of a garden, grass and lilac, somehow the sun makes things smell differently, the same way rain does, it’s just a smell that instantly triggers very distinct memories of teenage me taking in a moment i really enjoyed, relaxed, enjoying the sun and free time and probably reading a good book, noticing how everything is good right now, and it always triggers the same mindset

🌺 favourite relaxing/uplifting song: kiss the sky by shawn lee’s pingpong orchestra, i just get to the line of ‘and you will be someday eyactly what you are’ and i go yeah man i will i really will

🌵 favourite white noise: dark souls/bloodborne youtube let’s plays ??

🍄 favourite book to get lost in: i’m sad i can’t really answer that question i’m not a big reader these days, but honestly any book i read i get lost in that’s just how i am and if you were to ask about my favorite book in general that’s way too hard of a question, i vaguely remember enjoying the Night Watch series by Sergei Lukyanenko a lot but that’s been ages ago and i couldn’t say if i would enjoy them still, also Harry Potter despite all it’s flaws has been such a big influence on kid me that it just holds the title honorably

💐 favourite chill tv show: friends? idk it’s just one of these shows i’ve seen so many times that you can just show me a random episode and it works.. i also just realized i don’t often go for chill shows so there’s not much to choose from

🌹 the best advice you’ve ever had: not sure if i’ve been given that advice directly or it’s just something that i picked up on, but it’s probably ‘don’t assume’ never just assume anything, always communicate to confirm, it might only be so important to me cause my brain works differently from neurotypical ppl but the amount of times people were upset with me cause they just assumed i would know to do something cause it’s apparently common sense or whatever and me just standing there like ‘??? you never told me’, countless, and it works the other way around too i constantly have to check and correct myself, reminding me that i can’t assume other people experience the world the same way i do, it really helps prevent a lot of (often passive agressive) confrontations and helps you understand other people and their needs better

my usual @mangosandchili @moonlesbiam @decafdoppio @bluekeaton @minks-bara-arms aaand everybody else

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Thank you so much for tagging me @marshmallowmcgonagall <3 

Are you staying home from work/school? 

Uuh it’s 50/50 - I’m working in health-care so that has been fun (not) with all the additional hours and safety measures. To be honest, it’s the most stressful thing I’ve done in years and not only because of the obvious, but because the people I’m working with are scared and lonely and we have to comfort them despite being in the same boat. You can’t really tell them that you’re just as clueless about where all this is going, or you’re in a downward-spiral of worrying real quick. So it’s a lot of emotional ‘labour’ on top of everything else and - anyway. Not the place for a rant. 

I’m also still still studying which is now happening online. That works more or less well and if I hear one more professor claim that I can do additional reading because ‘I don’t have anything else to do anyway,’ I might just lose my shit in a fucking Zoom conference. 

Can you tell I’m stressed? 

If you’re staying home, who is there with you? 

I live alone so only me, my mess, my stress, and my current obsession. 

Are you a homebody? 

Mostly yes, though I miss going out to a bar with friends to unwind. Or just, see something else than work and my flat. 

An event that you were looking forward to that got cancelled?

There were a few smaller concerts that got cancelled but nothing that really bothers me all that much to be honest. 

What movies have you watched recently? 

None, really. :D

What shows are you watching? 

Also not really any, except for the occasional Merlin or Gilmore Girls episode for comfort. 

What music are you listening to? 

I... really can’t pin that down. A lot of Gaslight Anthem, Chuck Ragan, Dave Hause... A lot of whatever spotify throws at me - really, I mostly throw together playlists of what I currently like and they always end up being an utter mess. 

What are you reading?

A lot of Merlin/Merthur fanfiction. This fandom has dragged me down and I’m absolutely unable to focus on anything else right now. Though I’m going to have a few days off next week and then I’ll finally get to all the fantastic-looking fics that are being posted for the @regulusblackfest

What are you doing for self-care?

Sleeping, reading and writing Merthur fanfiction, and avoiding to read news aside from the ones I need to keep track of for work. 

Tagging: Whoever would like to do this - seriously if you want to, tag me! I’m just too tired to think right now. <3